My body may be young, but my soul is very old
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last night was a blast
bn had a gig in cville
some friends of his were playing at this lttle bar/cafe place
they asked him to play a set
and damn, i've never heard him sound so good!
steve got up there and jammed w/ him
bn had the attention of everyone in the house
music pouring over them....

before the show bn and i were at steve's music store
walking by the computer there i saw a printout of a familiar face
"my gawd, it's puce"
small freakin world
her face staring back at me from the wall
haunting and stunning
i told steve he should email her and send her a recording of the band
they are really good
she would enjoy it greatly

cville was fun
i look forward to going again
good people met

- Thursday, April 30, 1998 at 14:36:13 (EDT)
puce has a fan
- Thursday, April 30, 1998 at 03:42:47 (EDT)
um yeah
some stuff makes me scratch my hear and think

- Wednesday, April 29, 1998 at 15:03:16 (EDT)
i'm turning
from you, from us
from this home we built together
i'd give it all away
for another glimpse
one more taste
a long embrace
another chance
at love
at life
which i'm slipping from
like the smell of you
from these empty rooms
where we once sat
on the couch
it's shadow
on the carpet
where we made love
that first night
in this place
and full of dreams
of little feet
playing with puppies
on summer days
your smile
all i needed then
so innocent
we were
but not
time aged us
grown hard and old
once we danced
spinning around

if you know me don't try to read into this
i just had the urge to write something that i thought the Ben's Fold Five would sing
kinda came to me in the morning
weary from too long a night

- Wednesday, April 29, 1998 at 14:47:50 (EDT)
Sobriety can be a Drug
powerfull... i think i may be addicted
so much time spent with that high

tonight an odd night, like most in richmond
at a money machine i met a girl from noraway
typical scandinavian beauty
which is to say she was extrordinary
she invited me to join her at a bar her friends and herself were headed to
country night she said
oh how awfull i thought
other plans we had
bad plans we, Bn and i, had
so we returned, to a bar called babe's
just so happened they were closing and Sicilia and her friend Pascale we exiting the place
what luck
i helped Bn pick up his jaw
and greeted drunken women
oh what a personality Pascale (not from noraway) has
she said things that i only thought i say
she spat, 'cus she plays soccer
invite to join them in going to casablanca, another bar
have you pieced it together yet?
read the rainbow colored signs
a block later came confirmations
you see... babe's is a lesbian bar, and so are they
which is fine
unless maybe you are two straight guys that have just met some really cool women
myself already thinking that this person i'm talking to is one of the most "kick ass" i've met in a while
so we drove to another gay bar
Bn and i felt ourselves being undressed, in THEIR minds at least
gay frat boys, how cute
said our piece
gave her my number, regardless of gender preference i hope Pascale calls
in the few minutes together she struck me as being amazingly cool
and the straight boys departed, feeling a bit violated
on to 3rd street
the nightly home
i swear that Bn must, and again i say... MUST, write a song about those waitresses
it's worth a visit if only to talk to them
so how late is it now?
work comes too soon

my voices
in contact
but not realtime
i miss them
one today though
talked on love, and trust
about having faith
faith in knowing that you are loved
faith that some people will not go away
that you can rely on them
it's a story that only time can tell
so one must decide for oneself
trust this person not to hurt me?
or hurt myself to keep them from hurting me
have we not all felt this from time to time?
i know i have

- Wednesday, April 29, 1998 at 02:37:56 (EDT)
seems some peeps got the writing bug
old man sorted got's it
not that it's bad
pretty cool i think
just a bunch of creative junkies

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 19:16:09 (EDT)
hera aine, i answer your question
by telling you i have thought it too

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 18:07:18 (EDT)
the voices speak in diversity
yet their messages combined form a harmony
and i thank them

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 18:05:15 (EDT)
they are playing download right now!
i love this "station"!

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 11:31:05 (EDT)
tis awww krup
appollo: tire, what the hell is that???
i give ya some tread cheeseball

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 02:03:09 (EDT)
what the fuck
just saw the Big Labowski for the second time in a week
Bn is in town, and well, frankly when we are together we are a couple of idiots
but god smiles on drunks and idiots right?
and in a few minutes we leave to make sure we double crown that blessing
lydia, i've been thinking of you often, too much maybe
it's all smiles and swoons
hmmmm maybe i shouldn't say that here, but i'm not deleting it now
ok, things are good, so um yeah
rawk on
go out and buy Pigfaces, washingmachine mouth, listen to sattelite
think of me on drugs, 'cus i do
goodnight sweet dream

one last thing.... I am the walrus

- Tuesday, April 28, 1998 at 00:33:07 (EDT)
i dunno Calliope
i've been getting pretty good "breaks" lately
i think maybe it's more of just relaxing & having faith that the road ahead is a good one
just look at my past that i have presented on Silicon Dominion and you know i contradict myself
but today,
here and now
i feel an inner peace because i place faith in good things coming to good people

they just played consolidated
that rawks

- Monday, April 27, 1998 at 15:04:28 (EDT)
music moves the world
like you needed someone else to tell you that
but i've found a couple enhancements that help prove this point
and a great music resource on good wholesome industrial music

- Monday, April 27, 1998 at 13:59:56 (EDT)
i sit here excited
amazing words already
something intense about the voices
different angles
but one sound
thoughts in harmony
this is good

- Monday, April 27, 1998 at 07:23:26 (EDT)
finally after pulling my hair out
as is usual w/ cgi is involved it appears i have SiD6 up and running
it's fat and bloated, but it's soooo purty ain't it?
well cheers to SiD6, the Captain Hicks issue!

- Sunday, April 26, 1998 at 20:57:52 (EDT)